Marge, I am fairly new here but am totally blown away by the love and support shown by this community. The love and caring they have for you is palpable. What a special group of people.
My condolences on the loss of your darling Paul, but just remember that soulmates are that. Soul mates. He is part of you, with you and near you forever. It cannot be any other way. That is so very special.
I wish you gentle and peaceful days ahead.
In the book of life, the answers are NOT in the back.