Sometimes when I look at Cat's posts, it's like reading her journals.
While I agree with the others here, I do think it's mainly a cultural difference. You've had rare experiences and you never did get along well with most of your peers. Our family is very close, both in heart and proximity, and that makes a difference. You also have the fishing fleet family, and I know that is something you miss terribly.
Mothers cry too, Cat. I would say that if you took a poll of all the mothers in this forum, they would tell you they cry more than their children ever know. We're not magically strong creatures, and you'll find this out when you have your own children someday. Fathers cry, too. You saw your Papa in tears when we were there.
Missing the people you love is all part of this wonderful experience called life. Someone, and I forget who, has on their signature, "Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away." I think that's right. Wise words, Cat, remember this.
Feeling lost and confused is absolutely normal for a young lady your age. You're teetering on that threshold of adulthood, and that isn't easy. You're also laden with a great responsibility. Caring for the elderly is no easy feat; talk to our Ogress about that. She has a lot of experience in caring for the elderly and she will be happy to help you, I think. These people here are your support, along with Gwen, Carl, and Laki. Of course, we're just a call away, but if Papa and I are out working, these people right here are at your fingertips. You're very lucky to have found these people. Gwen, Carl, and Laki are even closer, so remember that.
When you're sad, think of good things. Think of our new Catina II, slowly making her way home. Papa loves everything you have accomplished and we're very proud. Think of how happy Aunty Stela is with you and how much she adores you. Think back upon the day you became an American. Look at what I wrote in your journal. Look at Carl's ring. I know you two had made a painful decision, but you two still love each other and he's always ready to help you. Look at Laki; she's the sister you never had. Look at your terrific grades. I may be a teacher, but I never carried the average you have. Look at your pets and Joy. Everything around you is very positive.
I miss you terribly, Cat. But having been there, I do feel better about you and your circumstances. I thought it interesting that you said something about order and discipline in an earlier post. Do you know where you learned that? You learned that through every fishing season on Catina. You also learned that when both of your cousins got into trouble and Aunty Stela sent them back here. They haven't improved, unfortunately. Your aunt and uncle are having a rough time with them.
Enough of the lecture! I'm still on American time and I can't sleep. I go back to work on Monday, and hopefully I'll get my sleep schedule back on track by then. If not, my poor students will have to put up with a grumpy, sleepy teacher!
I want to thank you all for being so gracious to me. I do enjoy this forum, and I'll be visiting often. Keep an eye on Cat. If she goes out to drinking parties and starts dealing drugs, I need to know.
MammaCat
My mom made me stay with my grandma if my parents went away when I was in high school! Highly insulting to me at the time (but very wise now that I think about it).
