I'm laying here on the bed very angry at the world right now (the world outside DC that is!). My leg (the one with the replacement) has swollen to about triple its size and I can barely walk on it with my cane. When I go to get up I can not put weight on it (bent) and while it is sore all the time it gets worse at certain angles.
On my left side I am still having the flank pain I was having when I did or did not have kidney stones/kidney infection/bladder infection. It is steady and worse than ever.
My leg doctor told me that the scar tissue may cause problems with the plastic plate again and if I have troubles before my normal visit in August I should come and see him. So I decide to start here, but his normally friendly receptionist is matter of fact and says she can't get me in until mid August and will set the appointment but I need to go to my family doctor and get another referral. I try to say the doctor wanted to see me and she said basically "get in line".
Now my family doctor doesn't want to deal with my side pain because she believes we have tried everything and there aren't any more tests to do.
I am not making these pains up. Quite the opposite. I am tired of pain and illness. I am tired of doctors and tests. I have a chance to get on with my life and the minute I try to stuff happens.
I had to cancel my cake decorating lessons with the youth today (I think they are giving up on me) and going to see some young women I have watched grow up and an older one I have only recently met but have seen blossom get baptized in the ocean tonight.
The thing is if I go ahead and do things I get worse and have to rest even more. But if I don't do anything I get more frustrated.
Thanks for letting me get that out. I am a little better. But still in pain.