snackpack, so sorry you are down right now. I'm there with you if that helps any. Part of it is that you are so isolated, with your job, with your DH far away. You need people in your life that GIVE you a little energy, friends. I hope you find what you need here, and there, and everywhere.
To me, you sound like a very positive person (from your previous posts), but, you can't always be the GIVER, sometimes you need to be the RECEIVER too! I hope that helps. ~Bliss (not so blissful today)