First of all thank you. Second of all you should never judge yourself like that. It is G-d's job to judge us. And you do not know who is his favorite. It says that world to come is open to anybody, not just Jews, or just christians as some may believe, or just Muslims as some other may think. No, world to come is for everybody who is righteous. Do good deeds, behave like a good person should and you are one of the favorits.
As far as Chanukah, I personally believe that this Holiday can be celebrated by anybody who believes in light over darkness, good over bad, kindness over hatred. Because that's the miracle of Chanukah.
Wanted to wish you and your family a happy Haunakah. I always like seeing your posts on Discuss Cooking. I took some time off posting, but I really respect the effort you and a couple of others do to keep this place running, and have it be the cool community it is.
Chag Urim Sameach for this years festival of lights.
Yeah, MRE's aren't pretty. And I'm not surprised. I've got a friend that works with this, and a lot of work goes into it, not like a normal recipe. Has to be stable under various awful conditions, reheated easy, and taste the same? I camp quite a bit, so I am conversant with what is going on with portable rations. Generally US army rations have been tried BTW at several scout camps. They do tend to go for the 'reheatable liquid included' package other than a dehydrated (which I think gives better meals but requires boiling water, aka a separate heat source)
you'd b surprised that American army supplies do not,look much better. As the matter of fact when we first came we visited Salvation Army a lot. They had plenty of army supply to give away. We could never understand why Americans did not want to take them. We loved them, remind us about Russian army supply.
I was close to making a project of recreating soviet army rations for my Russian friends, but with better ingredients and, well just OK. I doubt that is a useful project, they are really awful, sorry you had to eat that. I mean I could with those ingredients make something nice , but it is mostly something I'd shudder even to look at. I get your dislike of barley.