Silentmeow - I know things have been terribly confusing for you lately. I hope some of our wise members have helped ease that confusion. Your step-son, your husband, your step-son's wife, their 1-year old and little Avery AND Zach, are glad you were born - you were born to be there for them and wrap your arms around them. When we wrap our arms around our children we get so much in return that they don't even know. We are all thankful that you have let us into a part of your life that has been so difficult because those that have only read about what you have gone through may have taken something that will help them one day. I know I have taken something from it.
No matter what you do today celebrate your birthday because everyone around you celebrates YOU.