Bug, you're just an accomplished communicator!! An artiste!
And I'm proud of you for even considering the cessation thing! Quitting any habit is difficult (i.e., having to leave here), but nicotine is the worst. Clinically, more addictive than heroine. I smoked part of one myself last week -- the first one I've had in more than a decade -- and since, I can't stand close enough to anyone who is smoking.
Pain is inevitable. Suffering is Optional.