I am on my fourth attempt to quit smoking with Chantix. Having two kids in my home smoking, doesn't help with my efforts. I give up.
Before I always had funny dreams from the Chantix. This time it is just not the same. Horrible dreams to the point of dangerous dreams for me. A few nights ago, I almost fell out of bed while trying to kill all the huge animals in my dream. And I let out a scream that scared Pirate to no end. Now it is becoming too dangerous for me to stay on Chantix. With all my medical problems, I need to concentrate on them, not smoking. Considering that I smoke about seven or eight cigarettes a day, I am not to concerned about smoking. You would think with the few amount of cigarettes I do smoke it would be easy to quit.
Right now I am trying so hard to learn to walk with a medical leg and it is very painful. Yesterday was a somewhat successful day. I didn't smoke for several hours after the lesson. But in the process, I fell and managed to remove the skin on top of my hand. Success on one hand, failure on the other side. Pirate and I went outside to have a cigarette. I took one or two puffs. That was it. The both of us are down to our school days. We both share one cigarette when either one of us lights up. He does it for financial reason. Just too expensive. Sooner or later when my stress level goes down, I know I will quit. Just not now.
I would like to find something to relieve my stress level other than smoking. But doing that only adds to my stress. I really need to concentrate on getting my health problems solved first.
Oddly enough I find coming to the computer and reading my emails from DC, is a lot of help in the quitting department. I find that I would rather read what is going on here, than reaching for a cigarette. Thanks to everyone who is posting. It makes it a lot easier to cut back on the cigarettes.