snack_pack85
Washing Up
My husband and I moved to the Central Coast because I went to school here and I always said when I settled down this is where I would do it. I had a few friends here before and when I moved back I found that some people moved away and most other people I just didn't have anything in common with anymore.
I have been really down lately though, about moving here and not having any friends. My husband never found a job here so he has to drive 2 hours and over 200 miles to get to work. Right now he works graves and the drive is just too much in the early morning hours so he stays near work during the week leaving me here alone for days at a time.
On top of that my relationship with my mother is really strained right now and there are a few other really personal things that are just getting to me. I am sad all the time and I am always alone. I really enjoy being a happy positive person, and I know that is what people are used to but I can't keep up the facade very much longer.
I don't know what to do, and I don't want to bring anyone around here down but lately there may be an entire day where the only humans I talk to are you. You are my link to the outside world right now, my buddies...and I have seen people here really pull together to help others who are going through tough times. And I really think that's what it happening to me. I am in an emotional rut.
Christmas day I got some really awful news. Really awful, and I cried for a second and just went on with my life. Yesterday I spoke with my mother and she brought up Christmas and I just did not want to talk about it. I did talk to her about it for her sake and again I was just numb and when the talk was over I just went on with my day. I still am not "dealing" with the issue and I am afraid that all the stress of being away from my husband all the time with noone to talk to and dealing with this new problem with my family....it's just going to be too much.
wow I wrote a lot. holy moly.
thanks in advance for letting me rant...and rant...
I have been really down lately though, about moving here and not having any friends. My husband never found a job here so he has to drive 2 hours and over 200 miles to get to work. Right now he works graves and the drive is just too much in the early morning hours so he stays near work during the week leaving me here alone for days at a time.
On top of that my relationship with my mother is really strained right now and there are a few other really personal things that are just getting to me. I am sad all the time and I am always alone. I really enjoy being a happy positive person, and I know that is what people are used to but I can't keep up the facade very much longer.
I don't know what to do, and I don't want to bring anyone around here down but lately there may be an entire day where the only humans I talk to are you. You are my link to the outside world right now, my buddies...and I have seen people here really pull together to help others who are going through tough times. And I really think that's what it happening to me. I am in an emotional rut.
Christmas day I got some really awful news. Really awful, and I cried for a second and just went on with my life. Yesterday I spoke with my mother and she brought up Christmas and I just did not want to talk about it. I did talk to her about it for her sake and again I was just numb and when the talk was over I just went on with my day. I still am not "dealing" with the issue and I am afraid that all the stress of being away from my husband all the time with noone to talk to and dealing with this new problem with my family....it's just going to be too much.
wow I wrote a lot. holy moly.
thanks in advance for letting me rant...and rant...