Okay, sush! You've dumped a...load. And, yes, it's a load. Listen to your universe...and others who are telling you. Clean up and seek help.-DEADLY SUSHI- said:Its ****. And its not logical. Every day is a challenge. If I could find it and smash it I would. Its messed up my llife in so man ways.
Before alcohol my life was ****. The stuff I've been through has been like knife in the heart. Maybe thats why I drink. If I wrote a book no one would believe it.
A book? We all could write a book, so give that up.
You've started another thread on this board (Doctor Who), which tells me you have the ability to focus elsewhere.
As I said some time ago, take a shower and get yourself to someone who will help you. Taking care of yourself should be your primary focus before meeting women, etc.