Yesterday was a very sad one for me!
The tutoring progtram is winding down for the summer, and I tutored my students for the last time.
My little buddy came down for his tutoring session with me. It hurt me so deeply to have to tell him that that would be his last time with me for the season!!
"Why?", he asked. I explained to him that the program stops for the summer, but it starts again in October. "That's not fair. When is October?,' he says. I gently rubbed him on his back and head to console him. He really likes me an awful lot wants me to be with him.
We played games for his last day with me, and I didn't have him read. When it came time for him to go back to his class, we hugged and shook hands. We didn't want to separate at all! We both began to cry a little.
When he left the library after saying bye to me, and was on his way back to his class, I cried alone in the library. It was so very sad and painful for me to see him leave the room and to think about possibly not being able to see him at all during the summer!
He really is a great kid and we got so close to each other that it was so sad and heartbreaking to see him leave the room. I'll see him again tomorrow and again in two weeks, but this child won me over and has touched my heart so intensely and very deeply in a way in which no other child there has ever done before!
It's going to be so hard and a very painful summer for me not to be able to see him for three months. I know that we'll both get over it, but he's like the son or nephew that I've always wanted, and since he told me that I remind him of his dad, that alone, really made me feel so proud of him to know that I'm sort of his "second dad"
I cry for him a lot now. He's just one special child that happened to meet me and share happy times with. Maybe I should not have gotten so attached to him, but I just can't help it - especially when tutoring him and getting to know him. I'll gladly ask to tutor him again in October, and I'm sure that he'll want me back as his coach again as well.
But It'll soon be happy times again for us! I just LOVE to listen to him talk and talk and talk!!