As a Priesthood holder in the L.D.S. Church, I asked my stepfather if he would allow me to give him a blessing. He agreed just a few days before he passed on. I was hoping to hear from spiritual revelation that he would be Ok. I layed my hands on his head and listend. What was revealed to me, I verbally passed on to him, and everyone else in the room. We were told that it was time for him to depart mortality and go home. I'm choking up from the memory of it as I type. I had to leave the room for several minutes to re-compose myself before I could continue the blessing. He was told that there would be family and freinds who had passed before, waiting to greet him, and that my Mother would be financially and mentally secure for the remainder of her life here (which at the time was expected to be many years).
I do know what you are going through. I have experienced the pain, and sorrow. I know what John is going through as well. I have seen it in those I loved. But I also know from my prayers, and from the answers to them, that there is a living God, and that life here is not meant to be permanent. Take comfort in that knowledge. Take comfort in the knowledge that you will be with your son, and the rest of your family, after a time, and that in that reunion, there will be joy that can not be experienced here.
My heart has been broken more than once. But it has always mended, and left me stronger from the experience.
This forum nows knows more about me than most of my freinds that I grew up with. You know the depth of my beliefs, my knowledge. I give you that gift because it can help you and John in this time. Rely on it, and on the answers you receive to your own prayers. And who knows, maybe it's not yet time for him to leave just yet. Miracles do happen.
Seeeeeeya; Goodweed of the North