CWS4322
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I had to go back to Ontario to deal with estate matters in September. I made sure I was back in MN for my Dad's 85th birthday and invited the neighbours, had a party (not that I wanted one--but he will only be 85 once). Then November 4th rolled around--that would have been my brother's birthday. Then we had Thanksgiving. Now I'm gearing up for Christmas. Not that I want to celebrate Christmas--I told my Dad that all I wanted for Christmas was for him to get his legal affairs in order. I don't need or want anything, but, as I told him, don't do this to me again. This being my brother dieing intestate, me finding him dead, etc., etc., etc.
My brother always traveled to MN for Christmas. I haven't been in MN for Christmas since 2003. I am trying not to do things the way my brother did. It is so frigging hard to be here doing Christmas knowing my brother won't be here. And, I don't want to repeat things he did.
How have others gotten through the first year of all these milestones? I just want to curl up in a ball in the corner. Instead, I have been making cookies and lefse. I feel like such a hypocrite. The last thing I want to do is celebrate Christmas.
My brother always traveled to MN for Christmas. I haven't been in MN for Christmas since 2003. I am trying not to do things the way my brother did. It is so frigging hard to be here doing Christmas knowing my brother won't be here. And, I don't want to repeat things he did.
How have others gotten through the first year of all these milestones? I just want to curl up in a ball in the corner. Instead, I have been making cookies and lefse. I feel like such a hypocrite. The last thing I want to do is celebrate Christmas.