mikki
Sous Chef
that's great luv's glad everything is ok!!!!
my Dad said i need to lose weight again. does he not recall having to carry me outside along with my brother so my Mum could take me to a local 'piddle at 67 pounds...
i only weigh 142.5 now, & i'm tall. why is he making me so self-conscious.
i promised him i agree to shush him.
i'm so jaded i didn't get mad nor sad. just shaking myhead.
he begged me to get to a hospital then, when i was so thin, then critisize me fer gaining weight that keeps me alive..
i don' get him.
thne i've jake promising to leave me if he has to endure my anorexia again.
HA!!! HIM endure my anorexia? HIM?! let me lend him my jogging shoes fer a few miles...
see what agony that was fer BOTH of us, not just him!!!
i may get a hotel fer a few nights & block a few #'s from my phone fer a weekend. sometimes i just need to be by myself.
i'm really not that upset, like i said, i'm jaded. my emotions went flat tonite.
yeah, ex. thanks, dear.
i'm not gonna call my Dad fer awhile, me & jake 'er fine now, we dined together, he brought me some bagsful of stuff i wanted, placed my decoration. me & him 'er fine. i'm not gonna starve over my Dad & i won't eat when i not hungry fer jake.
i decided awhile ago my weight's gonna be my decision, & i let myself eat when i'm hungry, & made an excellent decision!!! my Dad can.... well.
counting calories went out my window & i'm glad!!!