I believe my marriage is over. I'm tired of being the only one who doesn't want to continuously complain about life, about woe is me. I'm tired of sticking up for her bad behavior to my children, to my friends. I'm tire of the continuing stress that she brings into my life, every day. I'm tired of the fact that she has alienated herself from all four of our children, who all get along with me, and want to have me around, and she's not willing to do anything to mend fences with any of them. I'm sick of her victim mentality and that she thinks that every problem is everyone else's fault.
After a battle yesterday, where she said that our marriage was over, I talked her into trying to make it work. I said that we needed counseling as what we were doing wasn't working. She won't agree to that. So she continued fighting with me. i told her that I would do anything to make things work within our family, anything. If I had problems with the relationships I have with my children, I would do whatever it would take to fix it, including counseling. I said that if she really loved any of us, she should be willing to do the same. She is not willing, and blames the relationship issues on the kids. It souldn't be that she's doing something wrong, not in her eyes.
Last nikght, after my son returened home, after I let him use the truck I purchzased, she stated to me that he was to never use our truck again. I said to her in no uncertain language that I paid for the truck, every penny of it. And I said that I would be the one to make the decision about who gets to use it, and when. She said that her name was on the title too. I had her name added to the title so that myu osn couldn't argue that she didn't have the right to drive it. But I still paid for it. I have 99% ownership of the truck, and so she doesn't get to dictate to me who can or cannot use it.
This morning, I woke her up ikn tome to take me to dialysis, something I have to havew to live. She refued to take me. My son will tke me. And she's on the warpath beause I woulodn't let her again dictate my actions. She's willing to put my life at risk because I won'[t let her have her own way. I'm done. When I move away, and that will be as soon as I can reasonable do so after taking care of bills, and responsibilities, she's going to find it a challenge to pay for her won medical bills, the utilities, and upkeep that come with owning a house, buying her own food, etc. She wants to burn that bridge with me, then she will be on her own. She hasn't
worked a day and paid into social security for 43 years. The only reason she gets anything is because I did pay into SS for for over 50 years. When I'm not there to support her anymore, life is going to get much more difficult for her. But, that's her choice. I'm no longer willing to let her drive me into the grave.
Of course you are hearing just my side of the story. So look at this as my gripe. She is basically computer illiterate, except for her abilith to purchase things we don't need. So she can't give he side of the story.
All I ever wanted was to have a family where we all loved and supported each other, and enjoyed each other's company. I have that with all of mu children and grand children. She has it with none of them. Seh sill be lonely. But that's not my fault.
Seeeeua; Cheif Longwind of the North
there comes a time for hard decisions.
At least, it isn't accumulating, yet.
