Growing up quick, with no one to turn to, seeing your father beat your mother from as far back as you can remember and taking drunken beatings just for playing as any child would, let alone the other abuse I received, makes for one **** of a person. Just ask my GF.
Since 11, I was the man of the house. Since 14, I have worked for and bought EVERYTHING I own. Was a bit of a pot head for a little over a year (just before I turned 18) and was heading towards becoming an alcoholic, just as my father. Than one day I woke up and realized, "My problems are still here, slapping me in the face. Pot and booze ain't the solution." I got off my *** and decided to fix things. I got straight, worked on getting a better job so I could make a little more and get myself into college to do something with my life. Still haven't made it to college, but I am working on that. I have a steady job at a hospital and I'm building a career in finance. I have plans to open a diner and progress into a resturant from there. Considering most of the people who have been thru what I have, or anything near it, are eiother druggies or in jail, I think I did a pretty good job of turning around everything life has thrown my way. I still have the constant BS whenever I start to get ahead something goes really wrong, mainly my cars.
There are still times where I put my shell back on and start to push my GF away cause the main thing I learned growing up was I can rely on no one but myself and I have never needed anyone but me. I was in and out of relationships cause girls would become attached to me and I didn't know what to do so I would disappear. I've almost done it to my GF many times and I'm so glad she stuck thru for me. I've never been able to tell anyone what filled my childhood until her.