Corey123
Washing Up
-DEADLY SUSHI- said:Thanks for the responses. Its not to fun nor easy being this way. Yesterday i woke up at 3pm. I went out and did a few errands. Then I got a case of 30 beers for $11 plus a pack of Marlboro Lights. Total of about $16.
Been drinking from 10pm till now. Not heavy. A few beers an hour.
Its bad for SO many reasons. But Im borred. I get borred somewhat quick. I have very little money so I cant go out and shop. I just stay here in my apartment drinking. Every woman I ask out is taken or not attracted to me.
My last job gave me constant heart palpitations. They are gone now. So I feel healthy enough to look for a new job. (I was fired in January)
Bills are pilling up. I am almost broke and almost out of unemployment pay.
Anyhew, its 9am and Im still drinking my beer. Im lonely. No one is here to hug me or to talk to. Hence the beer. BUUUUUT I have my 2 cats. I suppose. No parents. No siblings. Just music and movies. The pool at my apartment is now open but Im 20 pounds over weight. Not looking to s3xy.
But its my fault. Im alright though! Im always alright.
The loss of your job. That wouldn't have anything to do with your problems with alcoholism now, would it? Only YOU can change it though, if you really want to.
And how did your last job cause your heart to go into palpitations? And if so, if your heart DOES go into palpitations, you need to get to either your doctor, or the emergency room immediately. That's a pure sign and the beginning of what may be congestive heart failure (CHF)!!!
I was diaganosed with it late last fall and was in the hospital TWICE because of it. You can be in danger and start suffering from SOB (shortness of breath) which is a really scary thing. Your lungs get filled with fluid and you're gasping for air as if you are literally drowning!!
And like GB said, you desperatly need to start trying to take responsibility for your own actions. Stop sitting on your butt looking for sympathy because there is none to be had. Don't be tricked into thinking that you can quit drinking on your own, because you'll lose.
I've a friend whom I hadn't seen for a while, and when I DID see him, he looked ten times worst than he did before. And he went right back to drinking, is homeless again and is looking for sympathy as well! I told him to not even think about asking me for help, because I tried to help him before and it all was for nothing!
I'm not helping alcoholics get right ever again because as the old saying goes, you can't change a leapard's spots. Please, go get help. Do what you must, but don't expect any sympathy from me. Help others by helping yourself.
I'm sorry also, for sounding so stern, but you need a wake-up call to make you change your ways.
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