Luvs, I'm sorry I missed this earlier. I know how bad this hurts. My grandmother died almost 33 years ago and I still miss her. But it gets a little easier with time. Here's something I did at the suggestion of a friend - start a little journal and record all of your memories of your grandfather. Write down all the stories he has told you, the things you have done together, his favorite foods, all of your memories. It helps you to grieve and someday, it will be a wonderful joy to read and have your children read. Your grandfather will live on in your pages and you won't forget all the little details that are so fresh right now. Big hugs to you right now, Hon.