Addie
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(((Hugs Addie)))
Thank you TL and Cat. I am still in my corner. Hopefully I can come out of it in a day of so. It is time to face the real reality of her cancer. Only 5% of the patients who have this type survive past three or more years. I knew this when I first got the news last year. But I have been clinging to that 5%. I can't let go of it now. At least it hasn't spread any further. I wish you could see the scar on her scalp. It starts right at the middle of her head in front, goes back to the middle of the top and down to the side just above her ear. That is how much skull they had to remove in order to get to all of the tumor. After surgery the tumor was reduced to single a cm number. They couldn't remove all of the tumor without removing some of her brain. So it is that little piece that doesn't want to go. And any day it could break out again. Another full year of chemo. It makes her so sick. And I can't do a single thing to make her better.
I don't know which is harder. Getting a phone call that your youngest daughter has been murdered or one that says you other daughter has brain cancer with a very small chance of survival. I need to get rid of these morbid thoughts.