I don't know what to say! I love all of you, and thank you so very, very much for everything all of you have done for me!
I did do my very best, I swear, I did. I spoke to DA and she is happy to be home! She also said I did a wonderful job, but she is becoming forgetful of things too. She is now where she wants to be, and I am truly happy for her.
So many times I wanted to come here and look at Beth's house, and to keep up on your news but I couldn't. Poor DA, it isn't her fault and I tried to cope until I saw dangerous signs and I just called my parents right away without coming here for help first.
I hope all of you will forgive me for this. I do feel, had I come here, all of you would be strongly telling me to call Mamma. So I saved us some posting time, yes?
I am fortunate, and I will have my friends here. My life will be changing yet again soon and sometimes time happens so fast my head spins of it.
I have learned something very, very importantly. I became nervous and worried of DA and my life here at home. When life at home is not happy and there are troublesome issues here, I can't be at my best in anything else. The home life MUST be happy and everyone must be happy for to succeed outside of the home.
I am bringing this lesson into my marriage. I have spoken to Carl of this, and he has agreed. He promised me our home will be our small place of heaven, our retreat, and our sanctuary, and we shall strive for to do this. And so I promised him also.
I also tried to make him promise me as we got older, if I ever became like DA he would put me away in a nursing home. He wouldn't promise. He said we will speak of that when the time comes.
Mamma wants to return here until July. Papa's sister is caring for DA and Mamma wants to be with me. She said I could decide if I need her here or not and to think about it.
I will call her tomorrow. Carl and I spoke of this, so yes, I will ask her to come back until July. He loves her and also his mother will be able to visit here with Mamma before we all go to Romania. I think this is a good idea for everyone to know each other, yes?
Uck, so much, so much. I thank you all! DA is happy now and I am beginning to relax. I think I may be able to be all right very soon, and once again back to myself.
I did my best, and she is happy now, so now it is all right, yes?
With so much love to all of you,
~Cat